My first concert is now completed. As many of you know, since I was hired mid-year, my position has to be reposted to new applicants over the next few weeks. I’ve been getting the impression lately that the administration is looking for someone with more experience than me. After a bad rehearsal, or after the percussion’s performance tonight, I don’t care and I’d be willing to walk away from this place. But by the end of the concert, I just don’t want to leave this school. There are definitely major issues with the job, but I’m starting to think the good parts outweigh the annoyance. And that’s a difficult position to put myself in, especially if the administration decides they want someone else who has had more experience. It would be a big bummer… and I don’t know if I’d want to take any other teaching job.
Anyway, it’s late and I probably shouldn’t dwell on this now. I have to wake up in four hours.
Then I take it the concert went well?
Just keep putting in the best effort you can and whatever is meant to happen will happen. You’re right…it’s not worth it to dwell on it.
The concert went well for the most part. I definitely want this job. I just have a complex where I think I’m not good enough for it… but the kids, at least the ones in band, seem to respond well to me. I am good enough… it’s just easy to forget sometimes.
Just remember that everything works out in the end. You should just focus on doing the best job that you can for the rest of the school year, and just wait and see what happens. I’m glad to hear that the concert went well last night.