I haven’t really said a lot about me lately. I’m not sure why that is. Perhaps it’s just because I haven’t really had a lot of time to myself lately. When I was “visting” my father and his girlfriend for a few months earlier this year, I had a lot of time to myself. I read good books, I watched a lot of Nick at Nite, I worked out a bit, I programmed, I even thought about my life. Now that I’m working full time plus, and spending almost the entire time I’m not working with other people, I don’t really have that much time to myself. In fact, since within the next week or two I’ll be moving in with three friends, I’ll have even less time to myself (unless you count the time sitting on the train in the morning and the evening).
When I have had a chance to think, I’ve been contemplating too many different things. I think about leaving New Jersey; trying to find another job in another part of the country… but it’s hard to just leave and start new somewhere else without any sort of leads or connections, unless I want to start at the low rung of the ladder… again. I’ve been thinking about what my ultimate goal is, and I haven’t come to any conclusions. I love music, I love computers, I love learning, but where does that get me? I’ve been thinking of going back to school… but if I do, it would have to be for something big. I’ve been toying with the idea of being some sort of “music lawyer” (not a courtroom type of lawyer). I know that being a lawyer isn’t an idea that people “toy” with, but yet I still toy with the idea. I’ve taken a look at bits of the LSAT, and I am confident that I can do very well on the exam with practice.
But maybe it’s not for me. If there were only a way for me to do something that involved all of my crazy interests, and to be paid well for doing it (someday I want to be able to help provide education for my future kids)… but I guess that is everybody’s dream.
Why leave the state when you can leave the country?? Just thought you might like to consider yet another option….
I remember when I was in my mid-20s I decided to leave my town, move to a new state and start over again. It’s not that my life was so terrible – I was just ready for a change. I picked Knoxville, TN as the new location and started getting all sorts of info on apartments and potential new jobs.
A few months later I was still saving up to move and happened to meet the man that would become my husband. Goodbye Knoxville, hello New York.
I still wonder from time to time what would have happened if I had moved to Knoxville anyway. How would my life be different.
I agree with Leah that you could always move abroad for a couple years. If you DO decide to move, then do it. If you decide to stay, then find something to make it more exciting, whether it’s going back to school or whatever. Either way, life has a way of happening whether you want it to or not, right?