So, there’s been some stuff on my mind… some recently, some tonight… First of all, Alissa’s grandmother is in the hospital. She had a massive brain hemorrhage and is now in a coma. The last I heard, they’re planning on taking away life support later today. This makes me sad, and I wish I could be up in New York with Alissa.
Also, I just got back from Dinner and a Movie with [DELETED]. We went to a diner, then went back to Darren’s house to watch Election. It was a strange movie. But even stranger is how it feels to be around these people. Darren’s my best friend, of course, and he and I know pretty much what the other is thinking all the time. No problems there. But, when I’m [DELETED] vibrations of my personality reflecting off other people. And everybody I contact has this. The more “in synch” I am with a person, the more my outward vibes and the reflections cancel each other out. Like Darren. He and I are so in synch with each other, I feel no vibes. The same with Alissa. But with some people, there is definitely interference in the reflection. [DELETED] They all reflect the vibes in a different way, and just being around them feels so much different. It almost makes me frustrated sometimes. [DELETED] Occasionally I meet a person where the reflection is stronger than what I’m sending out, almost like an amplifier will do to a music signal. That’s when I feel quite good about myself. Usually, there is a lot of eye contact, a lot of smiling, and maybe even laughing. When the vibes cancel out, like two opposite signals (what I send and its reflection), I am most relaxed. When there’s interference, I get tense and unsure of myself. I feel like people think I’m a jerk. But I’m not, at least I don’t think I am.